Chapter 286 - If Only I Could Rush To Your Side (1)
She wanted him to be free of any sufferings in the future, but what about her? Su Xiaofei thought.
Whether it was in her previous life or in this lifetime, she felt like she couldn\'t move around as she pleased. She could remember things from her past life clearly, but she felt that there was a piece of her that was missing.
No matter how hard she tried to think about it, she couldn\'t recall what it was and could only feel that it was something important. It made her feel like there was a huge secret that she had forgotten.
She thought that by reliving her life, she would be the one in charge of it, but what if she was still being manipulated like a puppet by someone? That every decision she made was influenced by someone?
She wanted to focus her anger and blame everything on Ye Mingyu, but she knew that the one responsible for her end was none other than herself.
"Feifei, you know I\'m here to listen to whatever that\'s bothering you, right? Don\'t worry too much. I\'ll be by your side soon, and no one will be able to stop it."
Lu Qingfeng\'s gentle and cool voice had somewhat calmed her nerves. He had unknowingly become her tree hole, the one who listened to her endless complaints.
Su Xiaofei rose from her bed and opened the doors leading to the balcony of her room, the damp towel she had on her head earlier left on the armchair near her bed.
She looked heavenward, her eyes landing on the bright crescent moon up above the darkened sky. She and Lu Qingfeng were beneath the same sky, yet why did she feel lonelier whenever the sun had set? It reminded her of Lu Qingfeng\'s appearance when she was still a ghost, haunting her mother\'s home.
He looked dark and lonely, just like the night. Was he lonely right now? Su Xiaofei wondered.
"I know, and for that, I\'m really grateful to have you in my life." She whispered to her phone, wrapping her robe tighter around her body although the night breeze was warmer than usual. It was warm out, now that spring had come.
Saying thank you would never be enough to show the gratitude she felt for all the things he had done for her. Lu Qingfeng didn\'t need to seek revenge on Mo Yuchen and Ye Mingyu, but he still did it for her sake.
"Every day without seeing you is pure agony, Feifei. If only I could rush to your side and leave everything behind…" Lu Qingfeng started, but she cut him off.
"But you wouldn\'t. Don\'t make a mistake because of me, Lu Qingfeng. It\'s unbecoming of you to be irresponsible if you disregard your responsibilities to your family. This is why it\'s enough that we could talk like this for now. No matter how busy you are, I want to hear your voice, even for just a moment. I won\'t ask for more."
There was a pause on Lu Qingfeng\'s side, making Su Xiaofei wonder if he was still there.
"Hey…"
Finally, she heard a silent groan and the sound of clicking glass. Was Lu Qingfeng drinking now? Su Xiaofei thought. Well, given that he was now of legal age, there\'s no reason why he shouldn\'t drink, but she didn\'t think he was someone who would indulge himself with alcohol no matter how stressed he was.
"You are making me miss you more than I already am." Lu Qingfeng said with a laugh, but Su Xiaofei knew better. He wasn\'t joking. Not that she would deny that she wasn\'t missing him too, because she did. Terribly.
She could remember watching him overwork himself until dawn, only sleeping for an hour or two before waking up in the morning. Lu Qingfeng\'s interest in coffee remained, but he barely had a cup or two.
Su Xiaofei couldn\'t understand why he stopped enjoying his coffees, considering how much he liked it in the past. It was only when she heard that Lu Qingfeng was suffering from serious insomnia, to the point that he needed to be drugged just to force himself to sleep, did she realize why.
However, what she didn\'t know was that aside from his insomnia, Lu Qingfeng\'s only solace after her death was to sleep. Because sleep was the closest thing he could get to death after she was gone. In his dreams, he would have the chance to catch a glimpse of her, even for a moment.
"Grandfather allowed me to leave, as long as I manage to close the deal we\'ve been trying to secure for months now." Lu Qingfeng sighed. "If anything, I\'m more worried about you. Zhang Ling mentioned that you\'ve been working overtime more often these days."
"It can\'t be helped. Miss Zhao Yi has recruited some potential talents to join Bluemedia. I have to make sure to limit the problems that may arise once they sign a contract with us."
Just thinking about the pile of work that was waiting for her back in her office was enough to make her head ache.